my heart is an open palm, exposed and raw
In my land of bright lights you are effervescent -
Overwhelming at once, I am oblivious the next.
You are the palpable product of words I never meant,
Of clouded judgement, infinite dreams; my sweet Regret.
My conscience weighs you down and embeds you
Somewhere in the murky depths of this sepulchral soul.
Yet there is little want of redemption for what I do,
And you and your kind maketh the stories I never told.
Even now I would sing that I am yours, Yours!
As I believe you are mine in all your tainted forms.
Sucker as I am for your taste, touch and allure,
The beauty of folly is not weeping when all else mourns.
So this is an ode to my ill-fated penchant for
Secrets I have to keep, and everything that
I loved to hold but not to possess.
That I wish to forget, but forget to regret.
Saturday, August 20, 2005
yay ive finished reading the book! gonna get the next two in the series. sooo addictive, i even had to forsake my math and history. i love this jappie and cheena oriental stories, its as if you've been trasported back to their time when there was fresh air and nice scenery.
right, so i've got two history outlines and math tutorials to finish by tomorrow. what the hell, don't think i wanna do them lar. not like mrs ang will check, but i've got no choice for history.
i feel this urge to go shopping but then i don't feel like leaving the house too. oh and i think today's weather's so damn good, it's really quite perfect for studying but then i used it to read. he he kinda added to the whole rainy thingy that was going on in the story. i wonder if i'll ever get to meet a real oriental beauty (not gong li please). i miss beijing and the forbidden city and all the fun nighs we had roaming the streets of beijing trying to act like we're not foreigners. i must visit japan someday, i will.
now what should i do. i feel a certain lack of direction in my life right now tsk.
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